100 THINGS ABOUT ME

100 THINGS ABOUT ME October 28, 2006



1. 4 ½ YEARS AGO WHEN I MET BRYAN EVERYTHING CHANGED
2. HE TAUGHT ME THAT NOTHING IS SO BAD THAT IT CAN’T BE FIXED
3. HE'S SHOWED ME HOW NOT TO STRESS ABOUT SMALL THINGS SO MUCH
4. I’M STILL A WORK IN PROGRESS
5. I HOPE MY KIDS GROW UP WITH THIS MIND SET
6. I WAS RAISED BY PARENTS WHO TRIED BUT PUT A LOT OF STRESS ON EVERYTHING
7. MY MOM HAS LEARNED TO RELAX IN THE PAST 2 YEARS (SHE’S A WORK IN PROGRESS)
8. EVERY FRIEND OUTSIDE OF MY FAMILY HAS LET ME DOWN.
9. I AM OBSESSED WITH GOOD SMELLS ONLY THINGS THAT SMELL FRESH AND CLEAN (NOT FLAVOR SMELLS)
10. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN AMAZED HOW EVERY MORNING IS NEW. THE GRASS HAS DEW THE WORLD LOOKS FRESH AND NEW AGAIN.
11. I LOVE COFFEE. HOT REGULAR COFFEE IN THE WINTER AND A COLD MOCHA LATTE IN THE SUMMER.
12. OF COURSE WINDY RAINY DAYS (I GUESS IT COMES FROM GROWING UP IN FLORIDA)
13. HURRICANES. I LOVE THE HYPE, PREPARING, AND THE THOUGHT OF NOT KNOWING HOW BAD IT COULD BE THIS TIME.
14. I LOVE THE BEACH. IT HOLDS SO MANY MEMORIES FOR SO MANY PEOPLE. I LOVE TO SIT AT ANY TIME OF THE DAY AND THINK ABOUT MY LIFE AND ALL MY MEMORIES. AND THEN THINK ABOUT THE SETTLERS, INDIANS, MY EARLY ANCESTORS AND IMAGINE EVERY THOUGHT THAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN MADE RIGHT HERE ON OUR BEACH.
15. I LOVE THE PEOPLE I GREW UP WITH, AND EVERYONE I SAW EACH YEAR IN CAMPMEETING.
16. I OFTEN THINK ABOUT THESE FRIENDS AND HOPE THEY ARE HAPPY OR FIND THEIR HAPPINESS.
17. NOTHING MAKES ME MORE HAPPY THAN TO WAKE UP NEXT TO MY CHILDREN
18. I LOVE THE WAY THEY SMELL. I WISH I COULD BOTTLE IT FOR WHEN THEY GROW UP.
19. I LOVE THE WAY CHILDREN THINK SIMPLE THINGS IN LIFE ARE MIRACLES.
20. LIKE GETTING IN A CAR JUST TO LOOK FOR PLANES, HELICOPTERS, TOWERS, FIRE TRUCKS, BRIDGES, RIVERS, AND OCEANS.
21. MY CHILDREN TEACH ME SOMETHING NEW EVERYDAY.
22. I NEVER UNDERSTOOD WHY PARENTS GET SO MAD AT CHILDREN WHEN IT’S THE PARENTS THAT ARE STRESSED OUT. I REALLY DON’T UNDERSTAND HOW YOU CAN LOOK AT THEIR FACE KNOWING THEY ARE INNOCENT. I FEEL BAD FOR MISTREATED CHILDREN.
23. I HEARD A SCRIPTURE LAST NIGHT IN CHURCH THAT I HAD NEVER HEARD BEFORE AND THOUGHT IT WAS REAL GOOD “NOR SHALL YOU BRING AN ABOMINATION INTO YOUR HOME, LEST YOU BE DOOMED TO DESTRUCTION LIKE IT.YOU SHALL UTTERLY DETEST IT AND UTTERLY ABHOR IT,FOR IT IS AN ACCURSED THING.” DEUTERONOMY 7:26 I’M NOT SAVED BUT THAT SCRIPTURE AMAZED ME , BECAUSE THAT EXPLAINS WHY THE WORLD IS THE WAY IT IS. PEOPLE LIVE JUST LIKE THE T.V SHOWS.
24. I WANT TO HAVE ½ A DOZEN CHILDREN, BUT I DON’T KNOW IF THE DOCTORS WILL LET ME TRY AGAIN.
25. IF I COULD MOVE WITH MY FAMILY TO A DESERTED ISLAND WITH NO CIVILIZATION I WOULD IN A HEART BEAT.
26. LIGHTENING FOR AS LONG AS I LIVE WILL BE A HAPPY MEMORY. IT WILL ALWAYS BRING ME TO REMEMBERING EDDIE AND WHEN I THINK OF HIM I ALWAYS HAVE HAPPY THOUGHTS. THATS THE WAY HE WAS HE COULDN’T DIE AN AVERAGE DEATH. EVERYTIME LIGHTENING STRIKES EDDIE WILL BE REMEMBERED.
27. I LOVE TO WATCH MY KIDS PLAY.
28. I LOVE THE WAY KIDS LAUGH AND DON’T HOLD BACK.
29. I ALSO LOVE TO SIT ON OUR BEACH AND WONDER WHAT THE PERSON DIRECTLY ON THE OTHER SIDE IS THINKING OR DOING.
30. I WISH ADAM AND EVE DIDN’T EAT THE FRUIT. WE WOULD BE EATING OFF OF TREES LAYING IN HAMMOCKS ALL DAY HAVING CHILDREN WITH EASE, OUR HUSBANDS WOULD BE WITH US ALL DAY. IT WOULD BE WONDERFUL.(THANKS EVE IN EARLY DECEMBER I’LL BE THINKING ABOUT YOU WHEN I’M IN LABOR J/K)
31. I LOVE EATING CEREAL. I DO I REALLY REALLY DO.
32. I LOVE TO EAT OUT.
33. I LOVE FRESH FISH AND SHRIMP AT DOWN UNDER.(I ONLY LOVE THE FISH THAT FLOW IN DAYTONA, TRUST ME ITS BETTER THAN THE FISH IN NSB)HAHAHA
34. I LOVE TO COOK (I COOK WITH ALL CUBAN SPICES)
35. I WANT TO GO TO CUBA ONE DAY AND SEE THE SUN SET, BEACHES, AND MOUNTAINS..
36. I LOVE TO HAVE PEOPLE OVER FEED AND ENTERTAIN THEM.
37. IF I EVER WON THE LOTTO OR PUBLISHING CLEARING HOUSE YOU WOULD NEVER KNOW. BECAUSE MY LIFE STYLE WOULDN’T CHANGE. ME AND BRYAN ARE JUST NOT FLASHY PEOPLE..
38. I DON’T THINK I’LL EVER MOVE OUT OF FLORIDA. IT WOULD HAVE TO BE NEAR ANOTHER BEACH.
39. I LOVE THE SMELL OF FLORIDA (ITS SALT YOU CAN TASTE IN THE AIR.)
40. I LOVE BEING TREATED LIKE A LADY.
41. I’M SO SCARED I’M GONNA LOSE THIS INFO AND HAVE TO START OVER.
42. I HAVE THREE GIRLS AND A BOY.
43. MACKENZIE IS THE OLDEST.
44. SHE IS A CLOTHES DESIGNER AT HEART. SHE CAN MAKE AN OUTFIT OUT OF A SCARF, AND IT ACTUALLY LOOKS GOOD. SHE IS A FOR SURE IS PEOPLE PLEASER. SHE LETS WHAT PEOPLE THINK AFFECT HER DECISIONS. SHE’S PRETTY EASY GOING BUT PLEASING OTHERS PUTS A LOT OF PRESSURE ON HER BEING FROM A SPLIT HOME. SO WE’RE A LITTLE SENSITIVE ON HOW MUCH PRESSURE WE PUT ON HER.
45. SPENCER IS MY SECOND DAUGHTER. SHE IS NOT BRYAN’S DAUGHTER BUT EVERYONE SAYS SHE LOOKS JUST LIKE HIM.
46. SHE IS NOT A PEOPLE PLEASER. SHE COULD CARE LESS WHAT YOU THINK SHE IS HER OWN PERSON. SHE HAS A FUNNY PERSONALITY. SHE MAKES THE WHOLE FAMILY LAUGH A LOT.
47. LIL BRYAN IS NEXT. HE IS OUR FIRST BOY.
48. HE IS 100 % BOY. THATS HOW PEOPLE DESCRIBE HIM THE FIRST TIME THEY MEET HIM. HE CAN BE A LOVER AND HE CAN STAND UP FOR HIMSELF. HE DOESN’T GET PUSHED AROUND BY ANYONE. HE HAS ALREADY BROKE A LEG, BEEN IN SURGERY FOR HIS EARS, AND FELL THRU A GLASS TABLE AND HAD 15 STITCHES PUT IN HIS LEGS. TWO DAYS LATER.THE STITCHES BROKE AND THE HOSPITAL WOULDN’T PUT MORE CAUSE THEY SAID HE WOULD JUST BREAK THEM AGAIN. ALL THIS HAPPENED WITHIN 7 MONTHS THIS YEARS...
49. ISABELLA IS OUR THIRD DAUGHTER.
50. SHE IS A LOVER FOR SURE, BUT ONLY WITH MOMMY AND DADDY. SHE CAN STAND HER GROUND WITH THE OTHERS. SHE DEFINITELY DOESN’T GET PUSHED AROUND. WHEN SHE GETS IN TROUBLE SHE THINKS ITS FUNNY, AND WHEN SHE’S MAD SHE DOESN’T WANT NO ONE TO COMFORT HER. THAT SCARES ME FOR WHEN SHE GETS OLDER.
51. I CAN’T BELIEVE I’M ONLY AT 50.I AGREE WITH KEZ I LOVE THE SMELLS OF ABUELA’S HOUSE.
52. ABUELA HAS BEEN THE MOST CONSISTENT PERSON IN MY LIFE. WOW I JUST REALIZED THAT SHE IS MOST PREDICTABLE, SHE’S ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME SHE DOESN’T GET OFFENDED WHEN I DON’T CALL AND SHE IS ALWAYS HAPPY TO HANG OUT.
53. I’VE NEVER FELT LIKE I NEED TO IMPRESS MY MOMS FAMILY.
54. THEY JUST LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT.
55. ABUELO HAS GOTTEN BETTER WITH AGE. HE USED TO BE A LITTLE SELFISH BUT HAS BECOME AN EXCELLENT GREAT GRANDFATHER.
56. WHEN I SEE MY GRANDPARENTS IN NAPLES THERE IS ALWAYS A GENUINE TRUE LOVE IN THEIR EYES,
57. MY UNCLES HAVE BEEN BURNT BY HYPOCRITES.
58. I HOPE ONE DAY THEY GET STRAIGHT WITH GOD.
59. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH.
60. SOME OF MY BEST MEMORIES AS A CHILD ARE CHRISTMAS’ IN NAPLES AND MIAMI.
61. I’VE WATCHED ALL THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE AND I’VE TRIED LEARN AS MUCH AS I COULD FROM THEIR MISTAKES. I DIDN’T DO THIS SOON ENOUGH IN LIFE, BUT I SURE DO IT NOW.
62. MY MOM IS THE MOST MISUNDERSTOOD PERSON I KNOW.
63. DEEP DOWN SHE IS 100 %.
64. SHE HAS BEEN PUSHED UNDER FOR MANY YEARS AND I BELIEVE GOD HAS OPENED SOME DOORS TO SHOW HER LIFE CAN BE SO MUCH HAPPIER.
65. SHE TRUSTED AND BELIEVED WITH NO HOLDING BACK, BECAUSE SHE WASN’T HIDING ANYTHING. SHE REALLY BELIEVED PEOPLE WERE AS HONEST AS HER.
66. MOM HAS MANY GREAT SURPRISES WAITING FOR HER.
67. I’VE LEARNED A LOT FROM MY MOMMY.
68. I THINK AS A MOMMY WE GO THRU THINGS SO OUR DAUGHTERS CAN WATCH HOW WE HANDLE IT, AND THEY CAN AVOID SOME SORROW. I DON’T THINK THEY WILL AVOID EVERYTHING BUT BECAUSE OF MY MOM I DIDN’T HAVE TO ENDURE 28 YEARS OF IT I ONLY YEARS..
69. THANKS MOM FOR ALL YOU’VE BEEN THRU IT WAS NOT IN VAIN.(AND BRYAN IS SAYING THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME BUT IT IS BECAUSE OF YOU AND WHAT YOU’VE BEEN THRU I WOULDN’T BE JULE TODAY.)
70. I LOVE MY BROTHERS.
71. ITS FUNNY HOW WE ALL GROW UP DIFFERENT BUT I LOVE HOW THEY STAYED THE SAME IN A LOT OF WAYS.
72. ALLEN CAN MAKE ME LAUGH ANYTIME OF THE DAY.
73. WHEN I’M SAD AND I CAN’T CRY ALL I HAVE TO DO IS HEAR HIS VOICE SAY HELLO ON THE PHONE AND I BREAK DOWN.
74. NAT AND I HAVE A VERY SPECIAL BOND. WE COMMUNICATE ABOUT NEGATIVE THINGS WITHOUT SAYING TO MUCH . WE’RE JUST GOOD LIKE THAT, BUT NAT CAN MAKE A MARGARITA TO DIE FOR AND VIRGIN DRINKS. NAT AND I HAVE A LOT OF FUN TOGETHER.
75. I THINK I’M WRITING MY LIFE STORY.ANYWAY KEZ I SAVED FOR LAST. BECAUSE THE BEST IS ALWAYS LAST.
76. KEZIA HAS NEVER LET ME DOWN.SHE IS THE MOST UNSELFISH PERSON I KNOW.(WE’RE GONNA WORK ON THAT RIGHT KEZ?)
77. SHE IS MY SOUL MATE.
78. IF ANYTHING EVER HAPPEN TO ME BRYAN WOULD HAVE TO MARRY HER OR HAVE HER MOVE IN JUST TO RAISE MY KIDS.
79. SHE’S PROBABLY ONE OF THE CLOSEST PERSONALITY TO MYSELF THAN ANYONE I KNOW.
80. WE ARE SO MUCH A LIKE IN MANY WAYS BUT SO NOT IN OTHERS.
81. CAN YOU TELL I’M WASTING LINES NOW.
82. I AM GONNA BE A OB NURSE ONE DAY (HOPEFULLY IN 5 YEARS)
83. I HAVE GOTTEN MORE PERSONAL WITH THIS THEN I EVER THOUGHT I WOULD.
84. THAT HAS ALWAYS BEEN A PROBLEM WITH ME. IF YOU OPEN ME UP I OPEN MYSELF UP AND HIDE NOTHING.
85. MY LIFE IS NOT HOW I PICTURED IT BUT I DO LOVE MY FAMILY.
86. I WANT TO LIVE TILL I’M SO OLD I DON’T KNOW WHATS GOIN ON.
87. DEAD THINGS SCARE ME.
88. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN AFRAID TO DIE. JUST THE THOUGHT OF GOING THRU IT ALONE.
89. I LOVE COKE AT MACDONALDS OVER ANY OTHER SOFT DRINK.
90. I LOVE CRUISES. THEY ARE SOOOO MUCH FUN.
91. I AM GOING TO JAMAICA NEXT YEAR ON A CRUISE.
92. I LOVE BROWNIES THAT ARE STILL HOT.
93. I LOVE A GLASS OF COLD MILK.
94. I LOVE SONGS THAT HAVE A MEANING.
95. I LOVE THE WAY I FEEL RIGHT AFTER A SHOWER.
96. I WOULD LOVE TO STAY IN A BEACH HUT WITH NO A.C ONLY THE WIND AND AN OUTSIDE SHOWER AND HAVE FOOD CATERED FOR DINNER WAITING FOR US ON THE BEACH WITH CANDLES LIT EVER NIGHT.
97. O.K NOW I’M DREAMING. I JUST KINDA RUN OUT OF THINGS TO SAY.
98. MY FAVORITE COLOR IS WHITE AND PINK.
99. MY FAVORITE FEELING IS SECURITY .
100. AND THE LOVE OF MY LIFE IS BRYAN CASH........
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NOTHING TO SAY

WELL I'VE BEEN SO BUSY I HAVEN'T HAD A CHANCE TO WRITE ANYTHING LATELY. NOT THAT I REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY REALLY. I FIND MYSELF BLOGGIN ON MOM AND KEZ'S SITES MORE THAN MY OWN, SO BY THE TIME I GET TO MINE I'VE RUN OUT OF THINGS TO SAY.
EVERYONE HERE IS DOING GOOD. REALLY OUR LIVES ARE PRETTY BORING I GUESS. I REALLY ENJOY IT THAT WAY THOUGH. WITH FOUR KIDS YOU DON'T REALLY NEED ANY EXTRA DRAMA , RIGHT? MACKENZIE AND SPENCER GOT THEIR SCHOOL PICTURES BACK AND THEY LOOK SO OLD. I DON'T NOTICE THOSE THINGS ON A DAY TO DAY BUT WHEN I LOOK AT PICTURES THE TRUTH COMES OUT. THEY TURNED OUT GOOD THOUGH.
SPENCER'S BEEN TRYN HER WINGS OUT LATELY, THINKIN CAUSE SHE'S 6 SHE CAN ACT HOWEVER SHE WANTS. KENZIE'S HAS BEEN PRETTY LAID BACK, AND LIL BRYAN WELL YOU KNOW HOW HE IS. ISABELLA IS A CLINGER LATELY. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO WHEN THE NEW BABY COMES CAUSE I REALLY DON'T THINK SHE'S GONNA LET ME HOLD THE BABY. WHEN SHE SLEEPS AT NIGHT SHE HAS TO BE TOUCHING ME OR BRYAN. IT'LL WORK OUT I KNOW.
WELL I'VE GOTTA GET THE KIDS TO SCHOOL SORRY I HAVE NOTHING EXCITING FOR THE WEEK.

SISTERS

MY BROTHERS

I JUST WANTED TO WRITE AND LET MOM KNOW IT IS ANOTHER BEAUTIFUL SUNNY DAY IN FLORIDA. I FIGURED YOU WOULD WANT TO KNOW SINCE YOU HATE SUNSHINE. I STEPPED OUT SIDE TO A COMPLETELY GORGEOUS BLUE SKY WITH THE MOST PERFECT CLOUDS ABOUT 74 DEGREE'S. PERFECT DAY FOR THE BEACH OR THE PARK MAYBE EVEN A PICNIC AT HONTOON ISLAND. JUST TO LET YOU KNOW I'M GONNA EVEN BBQ TODAY. YOU REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW BEAUTIFUL TODAY IS. I LOVE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS THINK OF YOU WHEN WE HAVE OUR PERFECT DAYS.HOPE YOUR DAY IS WONDERFULLY DREARY AND COLD (CUZ I KNOW THATS HOW YOU ROLL)..LUV YOUR JULE

I DO WANT TO MAKE SOMETHING CLEAR.I DON'T BY NO MEANS THINK I KNOW EVERYTHING THERE IS TO KNOW ABOUT RELATIONSHIPS BUT I LOVE THIS PERSON AND WANT TO SEE THEM GET OVER SOMEONE THAT ISN'T WORTH THEIR TIME.I KNOW AT ANY MOMENT MY LIFE CAN CHANGE ITS HAPPENED BEFORE I JUST WISH THE BEST FOR ALL THOSE I LOVE SO MUCH.....I CAN ALREADY TELL I'M GONNA BE VENTING THROUGH THIS SITE ALOT..ONE THING I'M GONNA AVOID IS SITTING ON THE PHONE WITH KEZ AND WRITING BECAUSE I'LL DRIVE EVERYONE ELSE CRAZY...

OUR WEDDING IN KEY BISCAYNE FLORIDA

YOU KNOW ITS FUNNY TO ME HOW DIFFERENT PEOPLE LOOK AT THE WORLD AND THINGS THATS HAPPENED TO THEM.I'VE BEEN THROUGH ALOT A YOUNG AGE(NOT SOMETHING I'M VERY PROUD OF)BUT IT TOOK ME MAKING A MISTAKE NOT ONCE BUT TWICE TO REALIZE YOU CAN LIE TO YOURSELF ABOUT HOW YOU SEE SOMEONE BUT YOU ONLY HURT YOURSELF.FOR SOME REASON WHEN YOUR IN THAT SITUATION YOU BLIND YOURSELF BECAUSE YOU SEE NO WAY OUT, SO YOU TAKE THEIR ABUSE AND MISTREATMENT AND CONSTANTLY EXCUSE THEIR BEHAVIOR.IT TOOK BEING ALONE FOR AWHILE BEFORE I REALIZED I DIDN'T NEED SOMEONE ELSE TO COMPLETE ME.I COULD GO OUT TO EAT WITH MY GIRLS TWICE A WEEK MAKE DINNER AT HOME FOR JUST US THREE AND IT WAS AMAZING HOW MUCH PEACE WAS IN OUR HOME.IF THERE ISN'T PEACE IN THE HOME SOMEONE ISN'T PLUGGED INTO THAT FAMILY, AND ITS NOT GONNA GET BETTER TILL THEY GET REAL OR GET OUT.THERE IS NOTHING YOU COULD HAVE DONE BETTER TO KEEP THEM AROUND.I REMEMBER WHEN IT WAS FIRST HAPPENED I WOULD THINK OOOHH I WISH I COULD JUST HAVE A FAMILY THINKING THEY MADE US COMPLETE BUT IN REALITY IT WAS THE HAPPINESS WE FOUND WHEN WE LIVED IN PEACE THAT MADE US FEEL COMPLETE.I WROTE THIS FOR ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS WHO IS GO THROUGH SOMETHING RIGHT NOW,AND I REALLY HOPE ONE DAY THEY SNAP OUT AND REALIZE IF YOUR WITH SOMEONE AND THEY DON'T MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF EVERYDAY YOU DESERVE TO FEEL TRUE HAPPINESS.I LOVE YOU AND YOU HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO LIVE FOR.I'M EXCITED FOR YOU YOU STILL HAVE A CHANCE AT YOUR HAPPY FANTASY.

1/2 A DOZEN DREAMS

HI! WE ARE THE CASH FAMILY. WE LIVE A VERY SIMPLE LIFE AND WE LIKE IT THAT WAY.WE HAVE FOUR GOIN ON FIVE CHILDREN(MACKENZIE "7", SPENCER "6", BRYAN"2" ISABELLA "1" AND IVY IF SHE COMES OUT A GIRL IN NOV "06". WE ARE ALL ABOUT OR CHILDREN. WE ARE NOT INTO MATERIAL THINGS BECAUSE WE'D RATHER SPEND OUR TIME ENJOYING THE KIDS WHILE THEIR LITTLE.WE ARE SCARED TO DEATH THAT WE WON'T GET ENOUGH TIME OF THEM BEFORE THEY GROW UP. WE FIGURE ALL THE OTHER THINGS IN LIFE WE CAN DO ONCE THEY ARE GROWN.I PERSONALLY LOVE BEING A MOMMY. I LOVE EVERY SINGLE THING ABOUT IT.THEY BETTER GIVE ME LOTS OF GRANDCHILDREN OR I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO WITH MYSELF WHEN THEIR OLDER.BIG BRYAN FEEL THE SAME ONLY HE WOULD LIKE TO CONTINUE HAVING OUR OWN UNTIL I'M SO OLD I CAN'T.

BRYAN AND I ENJOY OUR LIVES LIVING WITH THE LEAST AMOUNT OF STRESS AS POSSIBLE. WE JUST TRY NOT TO PONDER AND HASH OUT THE NEGATIVETY THAT HAS HAPPENED TO US IN OUR PAST.WE BOTH CAME FROM SOME PRETTY CRAZY FAMILIES AND NEITHER OF US WANT TO FOLLOW IN THOSE FOOT STEPS.WE HAVE PLENTY OF IMPROVEMENTS TO MAKE FOR OUR FAMILY BUT WITH MOMS PRAYERS HOPEFULLY THAT DAY WILL COME SOON.WE ARE BOTH LOOKING FORWARD TO OUR FUTURES.WHEN YOU HAVE SOMETHING GOOD GOIN AND YOU'VE WORKED SO HARD TO GET IT ITS EXCITING TO SEE WHERE IT WILL TAKE YOU.